Remember. Forget. Re-member.
I reunited with my birth mother two weeks ago. It happened as I tremored, legs behind head in the wave, in my Fitzmaurice Voicework teacher training. She came to me, came through me, settled in my bones. I followed my heart, gut, fascia, connective tissue, lymph, saliva, and breath back to the beginning, to womb, to source. I followed blood 60,000 miles through veins twice around the earth to return home. I followed my nose to pine trees and ashy soil. I licked the remains of swollen nights, and blessed seeds, twisted roots, and spines uncoiling across sea across land to take new forms.
She came to me on July 15th in Slovenia, the first day of performance week. Two years of breath, body, tremoring, restructuring, presence, and play culminated in her re-entering my body as I called out to her and prepared for my performance ritual of my search for my birth mother and for myself. 49 years of crying out to the dark changed in that moment. My nervous system settled. My body became light as she nestled into my heart.
Once upon a time, there was a girl, a boy, a shapeshifter between worlds, a feather, a bird. And this bird flew, and this bird knew that one day it would reach the moon and it would become the sun and it would burn and it would die and it would be reborn, and from the ashes it would become a phoenix song.
I am thrilled to offer the gifts and fruits of my 2-year Fitzmaurice Voicework training in private and group sessions. I will be offering a 9-month program Free Your Voice and Body Stories where we will sing and speak with greater presence and connection to ourselves and others, with lots of play. This training involves releasing tension patterns to allow more breath and vibrational resonance in the body. We will explore different body parts and their stories through movement, drawing, writing, singing, and improvisational theater. We will culminate in performance rituals where we are witnessed with love. These deep dive trainings are a real gift to yourself to form intimacy in community and transform your stories, voice and body. The in-person 107 hour training begins September 30 in Berkeley and prioritizes QTPOC, BIPOC and LGBTQIA+ folks. Apply here. Sliding scale, scholarships, and payment plans available. https://docs.google.com/…/1mMDG4KNtF7ABPbtbek4c5zi…/edit
I hope to play with you soon.
Much love, Phoenix